I want to see you be BRAVE / by Maria Fuller

I remember the mean girls, I was surrounded but them as a child. I remember watching them break each other down and screaming in my head “STOP, WHY”? I remmeber  crying myself to sleep at night, fearing school, sick to my stomach to be surrounded by such mean spirited people. I remember being in high school and the same vicious cycle repeating itself but stronger, more fierce, like a knife in your back from people who you thought you could trust. I remember mean girls. I remember getting into college and it being a breath of fresh air, like 10,000 lbs of weight were lifted off my shoulders. I was finally in a place where I could be me, I could speak my mind without fear of persecution or mean girls. I remember learning that it was possible to have female friends that didn’t betray you and that helped enrich your life and build you up.

I remember finding out my first baby would be a girl and one of my first instincts was not of joy and jubilation but one of fear and panic. What about the mean girls, how can I protect her heart? Or even worse, what if she becomes one of them…

Maybe you were one of the mean girls. Maybe you were one of the mean girls that made my life miserable as a child and as an adult I looked you squarely in the face or social media with a smile of resilience on my face and commented on your children, or marriage or pets and wished you luck. Maybe you are like me and were beaten down to the depths of hell from one of those mean girls and like me you rose out of the ashes a phoenix determined to make a change in the world.

Its scary though, you know to think about speaking your truth. I’m still scared sometimes, like writing this and knowing some of those “mean girls” who made me sob nights on end might read this. But you know what? Those girls have baby girls now and there is nothing more I would like for this cycle to be broken and for them to build their daughters up so that we can join together as incredible and powerful women who love and support each other than tear each other down.

Racism, terrorism, hate, crimes and so much more. The basis of so much of this these days comes from poor self esteem, lack of self love and respect, from pain and heartache all that started as a child. We can be the change we want to see in the world it starts with YOU and your daughters…

 

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave